Dear Prime Minister,
I was challenged to write you a letter so here goes.
Almost five years ago, I gave birth to a beautiful little girl called Tilly. Tilly, as it turns out, was not your average baby. Tilly is disabled. Oh yes prime minister, it’s a letter about people with disabilities. Good grief.
From very early on, I have faced endless battles to get my child the care and support she needs. Every. Single. Referral (That I had to beg and cry for) was a flat no. They couldn’t help. Another time. Every. Single. Time. I’ve had to beg and cry and persist, calling over and over and over again until I could get a referral to physiotherapy, occupational therapy, wheelchair services etc etc. The list goes on. All services she needs. All services that had to say no first of all.
Did they want to say no? Of course not, the NHS professionals are an incredible bunch of people. They work so hard to give what they can to the patients they support despite being massively over stretched and massively underfunded. Strong and stable my arse. Did you know that a few weeks after a weeks long stay in hospital, when she couldn’t sit, let alone walk, one service discharged her because her therapist was going on maternity leave and there was no one to cover for her. I could (and have done so) cry rivers for the incredible nurses, therapists and doctors who support my child despite the dire circumstances.
Every single month I face lengthy battles to get hold of professionals, to pin down over worked doctors to come up with plans for my child’s epilepsy and future. Three times now, I’ve been told that I cannot have respite support for my disabled child as a single mother as
“Any single mother would struggle with any two young children. “
I can guarantee you that what they really meant is: “you need to have a major breakdown or we cannot help you, we don’t have the funds to help you”. I am one of the lucky ones, my mental health has remained in tact, but I am not surprised so many in my position crumble. Its a tough gig, constant fight or flight mode.
Do you know how hard that is? Do you know how hard it is to put on your battle armour and fight tooth and nail for the basics for your child when you’re dealing with the exhausting realities of raising a disabled child? It’s hard enough having to watch your child have a seizure, it’s even harder having to write in great detail about their epilepsy to prove they are epileptic enough for the DWP, more on that in a while.
Now let’s talk about money. Cold, hard cash. It’s quite frankly an insult that carers receive £62.70 a week but only if they are caring for someone for more than 35 hours a week are you joking? That’s £1.71 an hour for 35 hours a week. It’s okay though, as we can earn a whopping £116 a week as well. That’s a cracking £178.70 a week. Good eh? Not only that, if you can’t work, cos you know… you’re spending 35+ hours a week caring for someone… they put you through humiliating appointments at the job centre where you are treated like a lazy lay about.
“But don’t you want to work?”
I was once asked whilst sat there with my newborn curled up on my chest and my disabled toddler sat screaming next to me. Oh how I loved that one. I do work now as it turns out, I am worse off for it but at least I don’t have to sit through that anymore.
Let’s not forget the three months I was left without thousands of pounds because HMRC decided to end my tax credits with a days notice and accused me and thousands of other single parents (ah yes, I’m one of those single mums, my husband left me whilst I was pregnant. Life choices hey) of being fraudulent. Three hellish months where I survived on the good faith of my family and friends. I saw others relying on food banks and suicidal because they couldn’t even feed their children.
Next. DLA. Disability living allowance. That’s a good scheme. It’s helpful. If you can get it. Applying for DLA is vile. The whole process is vile. Every question must be answered in an exact way to tick the box… but the way is never revealed. You have to prove your child is disabled enough for them. You have to write in minute detail exactly how your child is not like others. It’s a very painful process, especially knowing that the person assessing it is desperately trying to trip you up. They have targets to beat after all. I have sobbed many tears over DLA forms and still have to fill in more. It’s soul destroying.
Every single day, in almost every way, my disabled child’s life is affected by you and your government. My child and my family have to battle on because you don’t care about us. People with disabilities are not important to you. They aren’t seen as people and they don’t have a voice.
Except they do. And we will never stop shouting. You learn to become a warrior when your child is disabled and that comes in very handy.
People with disabilities deserve equality and their families and carers deserve support.
We shouldn’t have to fight, scream and shout to get the basics for our children.
We shouldn’t be made to feel like lay abouts, benefit cheats or fraudsters.
We deserve support and respect. Support and respect we do NOT currently receive.
I will never stop campaigning for equality, for fairness and for adequate support and provisions. Not now, not ever.
Prime Minister. That’s all I have to say.